Tuesday, March 23, 2010

That's me

That's it, that's what I am. I can't help it. I'm sorry but I can't.
Now I know what to expect from tomorrow, the same old me fighting with the new me. Guess who's gonna win?

Shit.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

LAX

In tempi non sospetti avevo detto che
"non si resetta nulla, l'815 non atterrerà a LAX
cambierà solo qualcosa"
vedi che quasi quasi c'azzecco.
per una volta.

ma si cavolo, diciamolo pure:
a little bit disappointing è
ma è così e io lo so e mi va PIU' che bene.
perchè c'è GIA' stato il *pieno*, il full of life.

che shit di canzoni sono? crap.

Crossed out name

When I close my eyes
I feel like a page
with a crossed out name
---
Piangi, piangi per un'ora
e concediti il lusso
del dolore
e non guardare,
senti, svanisci dentro te,
assaggia la sofferenza,
concentrati
e decidi.
Se vuoi morire.
Oppure no.
E non smettere mai
di pensarci
ma agisci come se lo avessi fatto.
Agisci,
e non piangere più
fino alla prossima volta.
Piangi, piangi per sempre
e concediti il lusso
di smettere
e non ascoltare,
guarda, ritrovati,
assaggia la gioia,
concentrati
e decidi
perchè vuoi vivere.
E non smettere mai.

Wrong

My thoughts have to go out someway. I don't know what to do, anymore.
But I'm gonna turn this situation into something good, because i don't believe in destiny, and i've got my strong free will here next to me and i'm gonna use it like i've never done.
Cause no one's going to read this so, i can do what i want. yes.
I mean, who cares about me? Do I? YES. I need a reason: that's my reason.
Once upon a time there was a girl, she was brilliant and everyone who looked at her was amazed. Then that time came and her mind became not so special, when she realized she actually was brilliant it was too late and too many bad things already happened. So there she is now, wondering why she wasted her life, do you wanna know what she answers herself? I'm not what they thought I was, but I still am what I thought I was.

Think, I have to think. Just a few more days.
She hates me, I don't hate her. They don't like me, I like them. They don't care about me, I care about me.
Only memories remain. Blue. I lie, that's what I do.